Friday, April 23, 2010

Chance of a Lifetime

Fortune cookies are great. I’ve kept a few of the best ones over the years. My favorite is; “You’ve been given the chance of a lifetime. Say yes!”

What a great reminder. Often I say no. Usually with what seems like a good reason. Fear of failure, lack of finances, thinking that I should do something else instead (something more responsible).

I kept this fortune to remind me to say “yes” to life. To take a gamble, to risk.

Some days the chance of a lifetime is a sunny day. I “should” stay inside and cook, or clean, or research something for work, or . . . . But this beautiful day is offering me a chance to explore outside. I often see life as a series of tasks to complete. What if some days I threw away the TO DO list and just said yes to life? What if I let go of the need to have everything clean and perfect? Oh, that’s a scary thought for this Type A, anal retentive person. I want to practice saying yes to the opportunities that come my way.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Silence


Sitting at home today I realized it has been too long since I have been surrounded by silence. There’s always outside noise around me; TV, radio, kids at work. Most of the time I’m the one turning on the intruding sounds. It’s easier to leave the TV on in the background than to listen to my own thoughts swirl around. Safer to turn up the radio and keep difficult memories at bay. Memories of friends now gone, or friendships dissolved. Flashbacks of mistakes made throughout the day. Visions and dreams of what life could be (but isn’t).

Why is it so scary to just sit in silence?